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Perfect.
Just-
Just perfect.
 
 
Everything,

Every bit

And part

Of me

Is torn

And broken.

 

Even my handwriting.

I see girls all around me

With their loops and their curves

Perfect, neat handwriting

And look down at mine.

It

Sucks.

 

Why can't it look

Like everyone else's?

Aren't I kind enough,

Or smart enough,

Or just enough

To be that much?

 

Everything about me is

Wrong.

All the mistakes I've made

Written on my face…

I take the blame

And take it hard.

But I survived.

Will I survive now?

Looking down at my handwriting.

Illegible…

 

Not perfect.

 

Why can't I be perfect

Like you and your

Pretty little friends?

I try to be nice,

But it gets hard when

I can compare

Everything I'm not.

It's everything you are.

Handwriting

Is just one of the ways

I feel myself slowly

Break.

 

Sometimes I wonder how much I can take.

 

It's days like this

I wish I didn't exist.

I'd leave you with nothing

If nothing weren't already

There.

 

I gave myself up

To be perfect like you.
Perfect grades,
Perfect hair,

Perfect body.

It was all I ever wanted.

 

But now I'm done.

I'm so done.

With everything.

With you.

 

And maybe you'll be happy to

See me leave.

Or maybe you won't be.

Watch me not stay and not see.

Turn my back on the world

And all I ever loved.

Just to say to myself

"Enough is enough."

 

Because I'm done.

And it's sick.

To think how hard I've tried
To be like you.

And you're already

So perfect the way you are.

Just take the compliment.

Why don't you try, though?

Why don't you need to try?

I've tried so hard…

 

But enough about me.

What about you?

I'm sure that's what everybody

Expects me to say.

But I can't.

Anymore.

Please.

I told myself

'It's fine now…'

'Enough is enough…'

 
Am I enough?
 


So why do I even try?
Am I enough?
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CrownedFact's avatar
"But don't you think it'd be fun
         If you were different from everyone?"


OMG. HOW'D I MAKE THAT RHYME.